How I learned to sing
The day spins like a plate on a pole,
sunlight streaming down and around us,
carving shadows out of the beach.
A snag of mishaps has shaped mum’s face
into a taut parody of itself.
We are sent to find crabs, in pools
where we have not seen a crab for years.
The sea is a vein in the estuary,
the tide coming in a race memory,
and stranded pools dot the sand
with water still so cold it cramps
our calves before we can fight.
Then my sister is suddenly dancing,
splashing towards me with her discovery,
a small pink starfish she waves
in my dumbstruck face.
Though she is smaller, I can’t reach it,
she ducks and swerves away
like the memory of it now.
I can’t reach her, mum and dad
are too far back to help, but
I want that starfish, want to run
my fingers over its serrations,
pop it in my pocket to frighten
my mum with as we wipe sand
from between our toes later.
I start to scream at my sister,
first words and then just noises,
and the gulls turn from pencil flicks
to real birds with real blood
rushing beneath sharp feathers,
claws asking my shirt whether
it will rip or be carried off,
and now my voice has gone soft
and crying for what I can’t get
I feel my wings rise and set,
the gulls craws and my own throat
harmonise as I pale and float
up and over the docile waves,
not worrying, or wanting to be saved,
looking down on the strip of beach
at the family I could not reach,
and singing back back back.
Where Thinking Got Me
It was ideas cut my chest tight.
The dusk sang me ragged,
wrang me dry as salt.
Hollow backed with hunger
I held the face in the mirror
steady, simple as a toy box,
while I sweat myself some air.
Three deep sweet breaths
made my young neck flush
when some sudden consolation
wrapped me in papier maché,
delivered me into stereo,
then made me run everything
I’d ever done again, backwards,
all the way home.
The Horse Burning Park
It’s fun for all the family.
Real horses, real fat to fly
past your pink little ears.
Real aroma to tickle the hairs
of your ever so delicate noses.
Real flames to singe your trousers.
The incredible heritage of horse burning.
We’ll take you through the theory and the
practice.
We’ll stroll through a living, breathing,
burning museum:
horse burning through the ages.
Some of you might find the methods used
barbaric.
Here at The Park, we think them quaint.
Simplicity in everything,
especially horse burning.
That was the motto of my forefathers.
My family have been burning horses for six
generations.
The lengths I have to go to burn a horse
nowadays.
My grandfather would have died laughing.
And they do say I’m to be the last allowed
to burn horses.
What my son will do I don’t know.
Taking tours around a museum is no way to
live.
But I digress.
Shall we start.
That one belonged to Boedicia.
It gazed upon her breasts, so was burnt.
Gazed, not grazed, madam.
The method is classically simple.
They simply shove the horse onto
the nearest bonfire and poke it
so that it stays in the flames.
Once the legs have gone,
you’re laughing.
They’re doing a good job, those men,
do try and appreciate it.
Craftsmen the like of which we don’t get
today.
Yes, this particular method stems from a
time
when horses were burnt to warm the house.
A little too utilitarian for my liking.
No art in it, just heating.
Of course, fireplaces were bigger then.
The children used to pick through the ashes
looking for teeth and play a game
rather similar to marbles with them.
Any questions so far?
There may be a little pain involved,
but not as we understand it.
Horses are beautiful animals, but
unintelligent.
Yes, posters and t-shirts are available,
along with technical histories of the art
and novels and autobiographies of some
of its ‘characters’, such as Nathan
Churles,
who personally rode every horse before
burning it,
and thatched his cottage with their manes,
forcing his wife, Nellie, to comb it daily.
No, the horses were in actual fact
burnt indoors, in ‘burning sheds’.
The Park is an attempt to capture
the excitement without the grime.
Yes, I would rather be burning horses
than standing here talking to you.
Becoming short-sighted
The more I look out at the world
the harder it gets to see across the
street.
The houses opposite fog over, that new
couple
moving down a rickety ladder are lost to a
blur
that dances around focus but decides on
nothing.
We’ll not get to know them. I’d put money
on it.
This lunchtime’s obsession is the fresh
plans for schools:
Get
rich quick or stay thick, the white paper’s called.
(They’ve stopped even pretending.) If there
are angry crowds
gathering in the gloom only yards away I
can’t see them.
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